Father's Day

Yesterday was not a better day. Normally the increase of meds takes about a week to start taking effect so I'm waiting patiently. I had a horrible nights sleep even on a bunch of sleepy meds. I woke up throughout the night then slept later than I could. I could not even get through fixing my hair without crying. Thank goodness for makeup! My MS support group was today but I was not really into so I excused my class early lol I then went to a graduation party for a young lady I watched grow into a woman. Time flies and kids grow into adults. I don't want to start thinking about my own kids because it will for sure bring on a crying spell. Shit too late....... It is past midnight and its Father's Day, woo hoo! I have a wonderful dad that I could not live without and me and my son went and bought him a cool screw driver thing. We're also going to do some chocolate dipped fruit and make dinner. I get to wish myself Happy Father's Day because I am mom and dad to my kids. Wish I could be happy but I can't right now. I honestly though MS was going to be my worst enemy but the real MonSter is depression. Depression blows and I wish I could be happy for longer periods of time. I hate when people tell me just be positive stop stressing its all how you look at things. Fuck you!!!!!